Hi my dearest dearest bea, now I hope you're not angry with me
(because I don't check this blog very often and I haven't been posting anything and also not replying your previous post) )': I'm really sorry I spoiled your surpriseS!!!!! The letter and this blog post. Omg I can't begin how cute and sweet you are bea, you're always full of surprises since 2009. Don't worry, I'll be checking my mail box every hour to see if your letter is here!!
Of course I will remember you and us, I will always remember because you're so dearly to me. And I'm sorry to hear you and Ch had a rough day )': I'm feeling really sad now because I hate the thought of you feeling sad. I hope things will work out for you and him soon and live happily ever after. I know it's hard to have a NS bf, it sucks big time. But I have faith in both of you, don't worry.
Results are coming out today so yes we should meet up asap!!!! You're always so cute worrying about me (': I was v v v v v busy with school for the past weeks so it's okay. It doesn't matter if we meet once a year or in a decade, because I know you'll always always care for me and be there for me, and so the thought of it it's comforting enough to last me through till I see you again.
Things have been alright, more to the good side, so don't worry (: Yes I read the notes and re-read your letters once in awhile hehe and I still can't thank you enough. I'll always remember you, promise.
Sorry I haven't reply your previous post ): I actually read it last year but I was reading it when I was running errands and I was about to cry in public because it really touched me so deep, right deep in my heart. That post was the most comforting thing I ever read. It's like that's me that the author was writing about. Everything makes perfect sense to me. I want to thank you for sharing it with me and thought of me when you came across it. You always know I have issues with my body and how I don't like to talk about things and keep it to myself. So you will find a way to tell me everything will be okay through texts, letters and blog posts. Honesty, you're the only person that does this to me and it makes me want to cry every single time. Because really, it wasn't easy for me to handle it alone and to know someone out there is always supporting me makes me feel very loved and cared for. I'll be as wonderful as you are hehe
Anyway, I still read your blogs once in a while to see how's your life going on hehe It's so interesting to read, like how you will be talking to me face to face!! All the best for your results later on!!! I'm sorry Ch won't be there for you but I'm sure he's hoping the best for you too. I'll see you soon homie, love you xx
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Hi Jer, if you see this, I hope you're not angry at me
(I don't blame you if you are because I know you sent a Valentine's Day card but I never texted you to thank you right after I got it) :-( But the truth is I sent a reply out personally!!!!
I don't know if you got my reply by now, but the waiting killed me because you know how both of us hate not knowing if the person received the surprised and then accidentally spoiling it right??? :-( This was my only choice if I wanted to know whether you received it or not :'-( I hope you did, because I did reply you!!! And what I wanted to say was all in that card, so I don't want to say anything here to spoil it....
But anyway, I'll thank you here too because it's the least I can do; so thank you for remembering me and us every year. This year wasn't a good valentine's for me, and you asked why, so I'll just tell you that I didn't celebrate it (I was working HAHAHA) and more than that, it was kind of a rough day for me and Ch :/ Things have improved since then, but to me they only feel slightly better. But enough about that sad stuff, I'm just really glad I'm loved by you and yes m'dear I love you too :-) Nothing can make me more thankful for the years we spent together, and nothing will ever replace the SJC Valentine's. Girls' school valentine's over any valentines - any day.
I know I always disappear into the darkness and I only see you once a year :/ But after results are out, should we meet again? I don't mean to leave you hanging :/
I hope you've been fine!!! If it hasn't exactly been well, remember my old notes to accompany you alrightey? :-) Thanks for bringing the light into my life just when I think I'm forgotten. You always know how to surprise me <3
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Sunday, March 1, 2015
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YOU ARE SO CUTE DARLING. I didn't even know people read my blog HAHAHAHA
but anyway I thought maybe this would be nice to keep here :-)
“At some point, you’re just going to have to say
“this is my body, and it is the right body for me.”
your body might be the underscore of self-destruction
with scars and stitches and broken skin and long nights
etched into your palms and in the bags under your eyes
but you are not an embarrassment and you are not
weak and you are not a failure, you are human and
capable of crumbling
so show off those wolf teeth and say
“this is my body, and I am surviving”
your body might be sharp angles or soft curves or
somewhere in between and every time
you take a picture of yourself, i hope some part of you says
“goddamn but do i look good today” because even if
ten hundred people call you ugly
if you’re happy, they have no power over you
because weight and worth have no correlation
so if someone comments on what you’re eating,
keep eating anyway and tell them
“this is my body, and it’s my place to say. i can change things
about it, but during this journey i still love all the things
i see along the way.”
your body might come with equipment you don’t want to use
or you don’t think really belongs to you and
you’d like to change and i want you to know
that’s perfectly okay because you were
never a mistake and i love you however you
were made and if someone tries to remove the choice
of how you express yourself, you show them
your hands all full of potential and say
“this is my body and if i choose to knock it all down
or rebuild or just change the color of the paint:
not a single drop is any of your business anyway.”
your body might come with injuries or illnesses
that make people walk on eggshells around you
as if you were made of glass but they probably
don’t know that cancer scars never stopped my mother
from making excellent desserts or how my brother’s
disabilities never stopped him from achieving
and now he’s making prosthetic limbs for children
because your definition does not start or end with
what you’ve struggled through
and i hope if someone tries to hold you back
you show them
“this is my body and just because it doesn’t work like yours doesn’t mean i can’t love it”
your body might come in any color of the spectrum
and you might carry the weight of heavy silences and
clenched fists but any person that tries to justify cruel behavior
with the idea that skin and equality should somehow
be interlinked - you already know but they’re wrong
and they always have been and i cannot believe
it is 2014 and i’m still having to explain this
so if someone so much as hints that they think
they can determine anything based on race
don’t say anything just punch them directly in the face
but then when you’ve laid them out and are
shaking out your fist maybe toss over one shoulder
“this is my body and it’s excellent”
because at some point you’re gonna
fall in love with all of this
like how my ribs are supersized and i’ve got
fat on my hips and my tummy has rolls and
my thighs like to kiss and maybe it’s not perfect
because my hips still crack and i messed up my back but
this is my body and
it might not be right for everyone
but it’s what’s right for me
and it took me a long long time
to realize this and i think it’s because
other people look at me and say
“this is your body and i would like it to change”
but
this is my body
and it’s just fine this way”
Tell yourself you are wonderful and if you can't bring yourself to believe it, tell it to yourself as if I'm the one telling it to you (because I believe you are wonderful)
Have a lovely week, and happy end-of-exams darling :-) /inserts all the heart emojis/
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Wednesday, December 17, 2014
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Damn, your blog is really nice to read!!!!! Not to be creepy but I read all the more recent posts hahaha I really love the ten things!!!! I would love to just print out, make into a book and publish it for you for the world to read (or maybe just for me to read hahaha) Sometimes I wish I would have just 10% of your ability to write so beautifully. I would probably write non stop all day every day hehe
And thank you for your previous post, never fail to touch my heart.
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Saturday, December 13, 2014
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It takes time, but eventually you're gonna get there. I still believe in you, you just have to forgive yourself every once in a while for these mistakes. What's easy to do isn't always right, and what's right may sometimes be the harder decision to make, but often it's for the better. Don't beat yourself up too much about things when you make mistakes, but don't take the need to forgive yourself as an excuse to indulge in what you know is wrong. You always make the right decisions. You'll come through. I know you will.
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Sunday, December 7, 2014
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I'm the biggest disappointment to myself. I can't even do the simplest thing like keeping my dinner down.
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Monday, November 24, 2014
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I have no idea how often you check this blog but your previous post just made me want to cry because it was so unexpected. It's always when you least expect it that touches you the most. It's always these little actions you do that touches me the most (and of course those big ones too).
I don't know, I just lost all the motivation to blog because my life is boring. Actually it filled with ups and downs but it's always the same old things so I assumed no one wants to hear it again or I'll bother them and be a burden etc. But I guess, I'm alright. Because the positive neutralizes the negative.
No one actually realizes how much I have changed. I used to lock myself in my room and shut the door and had minimal interactions with my family. But after what happened to my mum makes me realize the importance to treasure someone before they are gone. There are plenty of friends I didn't manage to treasure, including you, before everything changed. And that's probably the biggest regret in my life; not treasuring those that actually cares. "Ohana means family. Family means no one gets left behind." I just wish I could turn back time to rewind everything even if it means I have to go through the same shit over again. Because after all it'll be worth it. I would rather suffer alone then let the rest of the world suffer.
Anyway, how have you been? How was A's? I hope you're doing good and less stress now since the horror is finally over. Please be well and eat more and sleep more and take care of yourself more okay? )': You always put too much pressure on yourself and it breaks my heart but I guess that's how you succeed. See you real soon homie, I really can't wait to have a proper catch up session aka h2h talk with you. Once my bea, always my bae (see what I did there (; )
Till then xx
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i know
and i still hope you're okay (even though you'll never say you're not).
i haven't forgotten you, i've been busy, but i'll see you soon.
i'll see you soon.
hang in there.
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Tuesday, November 11, 2014
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It just felt like everyone is slowly forgetting me.
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Three years
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Sunday, August 17, 2014
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Making Homeless Guys Arm Wrestle For Money!
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Monday, August 4, 2014
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She took my hand She pushed up my cardigan She slid my bracelets forward She saw She knew She touched it She rubbed it in circular motion With moisturizer cream She's a stranger She's a beautician That did my facial She saw She knew She touched it She didn't say a thing She didn't ask She didn't freak out And I sat there Wanted to cry Because she's a stranger She's a beautician That did my facial Everyone saw But no one touches it Everyone asked But no one knows I sat there Wanted to cry Because everyone is my friend And she's a stranger She's a beautician That did my facial
- j.t
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Sunday, August 3, 2014
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So sorry for the late reply my dear ): I actually read your post on the day you posted but I just don't have the time to reply you because I have been super super busy with work and school omg. I spent the weekend and hari raya working the whole day and the weekdays with schoolwork and project and presentation gosh IM SO GLAD TODAY IS FRIDAYYYYY TGIF TGIF TGIF (I have test tomorrow at 930am though spoiler fffuuuu)
Awww bea you don't need to be positive for me when I can't. Our life don't need to be a constant rainbow, we have bad days. And it's okay if we both have bad days together because it doesn't matter anymore when I have you and you have me. Even if you're cranky, you don't put it out on others which is a really good thing about you. You'll still be the same old super caring kind thoughtful bea (: I still have no idea how talking to me makes you more cheerful and optimistic because I'm just being me aka boring hahah
Of course I remember!!! Because you're bea and I'm jer!! Together we are beajer HAHAHA Doesn't make sense but oh well. But I always remember things especially if they have made an impart in my life. Oh yes it's a blessing and a curse but it depends on what you're remembering!! I can't remember any shit about my course though so I'm not good at remembering regarding studies hehe But you are!!!(don't worry, you're not alone so I blame poly then.....)
My week wasn't that bad but it was SUPER busy. I'm super duper ultra lack of sleep oh my but what's new hahah How was your week then? (: awww you're free to do so too okay!! Just post as and when you want about anything and everything in the world hehe
Ps, oh damn that was super smooth bea, that I almost fall for you (; (or maybe I really did hehe)
Get more rest during the weekend okay!! Take care :*
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Friday, August 1, 2014
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We're like sending texts... but through blog posts HAHAHA. I try to summarise so we don't have to continue and add on and continue and add on and then the post becomes like 21473095732957 pages long eventually okieeee ;-)
The truth is I'm not positive at all Jer, I just stay positive when it comes to you because well someone has to keep the optimism there right? And when you can't, that's what I'm here for :-) The truth is for the past year I've always had my fair share of negativity and moodiness because like what you said, one does not simply get enough sleep :-( And yknw school and lack of sleep and people being stupid just makes you want to rage about/at everything, so you get super cranky. I'm always cranky, but talking to you somehow makes me feel more cheerful and optimistic hehe.
I really admire and love how you can remember the details of each of the things we did/times we hung out together :'-( Always wish my memory would be that good (though I think you'll say its a blessing and a curse :-( cause I forget things super super easily sigh HAHA i blame JC........)
I hope your week has been going good, it's ok to be lazy, I am too most of the time hehehe sometimes short posts are just as good as long ones, so seeing how you update the blog with your other short posts, even if it wasn't a reply or anything, i'm already happy :-) ^^
PS, DUH. OF COURSE I KNOW SUGAR DOESN'T CAUSE DIABETES. yknw why? Because you do ;-))))
have a good Friday :-*
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Thursday, July 24, 2014
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HI YA MY LOVE, I read it on Friday but just didn't have the time to reply (because school is a bitch) hehe
Nawww there weren't sweet at all ): Don't make me feel good about myself hahah hugs from you are the rarest thing on earth so I'll just accept any form of hugs from you as long as it's from you hehe
Noooo you're not old and cui at all please, you're still the cutiepie I know back in sec one HAHAH I mean you definitely matured of course and grew some boobies. Awww bea I'm not ready to get diabetes at eight in the morning (fun fact #1: sugar doesn't lead to diabetes #mindblown???) I seriously have no idea how you see things so positively. I would love to be you for a day to be smart and positive and caring and kind and all the good characteristics in the world. I mean I'm sure you have bad days too, everyone does, but it's good to see things in a different perceptive rather than the same old boring one. Anyway, I'm not saying the photo is bad or everyone's options are wrong, in fact I like that picture too because I don't look so dead in the eyes plus that widely smile. But it all comes down to perceptive again. What I see is how thin I was and how brittle my hair was but other people see likewise because they had no idea what I gone through. I'm not blaming them but it just, sigh I don't know. Nono why would I scold you, how can I ever scold you ): Even if you think I am, I don't mean it )))): Well, I do agree that "happy girls are the most beautiful girls" but then again what is happy? Does happy really just mean smiling? or happy means "feeling or showing pleasure or contentment"? Feelings are so subjective and it often confuse me because I have zero idea what I'm feeling. I know now (; You just amaze me with your telepathy every time.
I KNOWWWW!!! Awww don't thank me for something I didn't do much ): "If I had to blame anything I'd just say it was bad luck and the universe." See!!! I told you you see everything so positively!!! It was clearly my fault and you blame it on the universe oh you are simply the cutest. I don't know if I'm just overly emotional over everything but you always make me want to tear after everything you write/type )': The book have touched me forever and I blame myself for not taking photos of all the 365 days. You ALWAYS do something right bea, always. Maybe it's just in you, you do it so effortlessly. AND OMG THOSE PHOTOS TOOOOO!!!! I remember those days so clearly like it just happened yesterday. We went to the gym together right!! Awww I miss your house and room and you most ): 19 May 2011, that was like three (!!!) years ago and we're still friends (': Of course we are, we will always be,
It's totally okay!! As you said, I don't mind at all!!! The longer the better isn't it huh? /winkwink. I looovvveeeee long bananas fyi hehe Sorry for the long post too, and omg if we keep replying each other + other new posts, won't it be even even long hahaha
One does not simply get enough rest in life ))))))): Yay proud of you my dear!!! Let's survive another week and the week after next and the week after next next and forever because school is ALWAYS crazy.
The problem is I don't have enough shoves to dig everyone or I don't have enough time to dig deeper. Yeah maybe it's meant to be like this. You once told me that "Everything happens for a reason, even for the bad ones" and I'm still trying to accept all the changes in life. If it's meant to be, it will be. So let it go let it go can't hold back anymore ~ This whole post is a mixture of seriousness and funniness ohmy and I took two days, yeah that's right two days, to type this because school, tiredness and laziness are bffffffffs.
( )': I just wish you're my god so I can look up to you every time and ask for help hahah but bea, thank you so much. I just love how you never ask how heavy someone's core (pun game strong) and I wish everyone can be like you and see the way you look at things.)
(Status: Hugs received) :*
Many many love
xxxxxx
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I misunderstood happiness for the past 18 years. I got to remind myself that happiness is a mood, not a destination. I always thought after I grow out of this phase I'll be happy, little did I know I was wrong all along.
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Monday, July 21, 2014
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I feel so lost in my own world and I don't want to continue to be like this for the rest of my life
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Sunday, July 20, 2014
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HI DARLING, what day is it when you see this? Hehe. Your previous posts were so sweet ahhhh thanks for always being so sweet I want to send you a million virtual hugs but none will be quite as good as a real hug from you :-( but here are a million virtual hugs anyway (... sending in progress) It's okay to struggle sometimes, we just all see ourselves differently. Just because you see yourself that way doesn't make you any scarier, it just means you need to find the better things worth seeing. I know it's still a battle, but battles are fought every day my dear; this one is just bigger and takes more time. Patience and some faith is what you need. That's what I'm here for.
I know how you feel. I know why you'd feel conflicted. And yaaaa even if I'm not the actual person (aka you) feeling the emotions, I understand the logic behind it but it's ok, it's all part of the recovery. It's the worry. when I saw the photo my first thought was actually more of how young and happy you looked ok cause yknw when I see old photos of myself I'm always amazed how a few years/months can make me look so old and cui HAHAHA sigh school life. But anw everytime I see a photo of you, I'll always comment with that emoji precisely because 1) I know the sadness in your eyes; I recognise it and 2) whenever I see a photo of you, that smile just shows me so much joy. It looks so real and warm and it makes me feel all bubbly inside. I don't know what everyone thinks, but that's what I think. I always saw the tiredness and sadness in secondary school because you were overwhelmed and helpless and I couldn't do much, so when I see a photo of you then, smiling like that, "happy girls are the most beautiful girls" always comes to my mind :-) (Don't scold me for being cliched ok it's the truth :-((() I'm telepathic btw, don't you know by now? ;-) hehehehe
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THOSE PHOTOOOOOOS!!!! Thanks for making my day :'-( don't ever apologise for that! It's not your fault. If I had to blame anything I'd just say it was bad luck and the universe. But things fall apart so other better things can fall together. So even if the books are gone, there must be a reason why it just so happened you managed to take a photo of those pages to keep it close to you forever. And yes now you have them forever. It's ok, at least the books managed to touch you and it meant something. Even if they're gone, yes it's a pity, but it's all I really needed to know. It makes me feel like I did something right, that's all I need. AND ALSO THATS WHAT THOSE PHOTOS UP THERE ARE FOR. Surprise!!!!! Not v moving like yours... :-( but hehe does it bring back memories? :>
You're a qtpiiiii for posting so often yknw that? :**** kinda just decided to condense all of this in one post (sorry for that :-((() so I can reply it all at one shot, so it's really long..... Hope you don't mind :-( (who am I kidding you never mind!!! THE LONGER THE BETTER RIGHT heheheh - psssttt don't anyhow think!!!!! HAHAHA)
Eh I hope you managed to get enough rest :-((( school is tough but remember to take care of yourself too still alrightey? You survived a crazy sch week!!! Me too!! Applause for us! Hehehe. Anywayyyyyy I guess we all grow up man. People change but to me the truth is right at the core they're still the same. They're still who they are, if you dig deep enough. Yes the world turns, but i personally truly believe everything is planned. So even if someone changes, maybe it's who they were meant to be. But if they're meant to be in your life, even if they change, somehow we'll recognise that core in there and we can click again. Don't worry about time and don't worry about life. It all works out in the end :-) or at least that's how I see it!!! (And I guess weight changes toooo so sure, worry about weight :-( it's completely human to do so :-) but what I also know is that weight doesn't say much about someone's core, and all I really know is that when I want to know if someone is still the person I knew so well before deep down, I never ask how heavy their core is ;-) hehe.)
(Status: hugs sent!) ;-)
Much love Xx
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Friday, July 18, 2014
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Once I start blogging, I can't stop. Which explains why you have three new posts to read heheh
It's 331am now and I'm still in the midst of doing my technical report omg. I procrastinated (what's new hahah) and went blog hopping. I came across a few people's old blogs and one of it was Sally's in 2009. And it just made me realised how much everyone around me are growing up and maturing. It's scary because it seems like I know them but I don't anymore. I have known you since 2009 but after we went our separate ways in 2013, it just feels so different because there's an awkward gap in between our friendship. It changes from talking to each other face to face every day to once in a few months. I don't know, it just scares me so much because I haven't learn to embrace changes in life. Nothing stays the same forever (aka my happiness level and weight).
Have a good day in school today or whichever day you're reading this (:
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Thursday, July 17, 2014
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I hope you're not THAT surprised because I took picture of it like two years ago. But sigh I'm so deeply sorry. I still regret it till this very day. I don't know what to do to repay you back. You always put all your time and effort into the gifts and I really admire you for that. No one ever did this much for me. 爱你多多多多
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Wednesday, July 16, 2014
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It feels weird suddenly to be talking to you through posts again because it has been ages since I typed one. I have no idea why I stopped. Maybe one too busy, two nothing to type, three too many things to type, four too much negativity, five lost interest. But I'm backkkkkkk woohoo There are so many things I need to update you about omg. Don't worry, I'll do it post by post one day after another.
I was totally shocked that you remembered because the last time I told you about this blog was New Year or something? I mean of course you remember this blog because well you created it (; But you won't be constantly checking it because ain't nobody got time for that hahaha and you're the cutest person on earth to come up with those passwords. You shouldn't even be apologizing for forgetting it my dear it's not your fault ): I know you're busy because you're a hardworking bea. You have your own life and I don't want to add on to your burden list.
I really like the idea of having a blog just for us, and us only. Whatever we say here, stays here. Like our "secret" place hehe Text messages are just fine but having a blog is better because it's way cooler. I always preferred to write/type than to talk because I can type and type and type and let my thoughts flow. And if I change my mind, I'll just delete the whole paragraph. Heart to heart talks are good too but you can't be sitting there listening to me talk for hours.
"If you feel alone I assure you you are not"
Sigh you just make me want to hug you so badly ): And I miss seeing your face five times a week for almost seven hours a day. I know I'm not alone but I feel alone. Everyday it's like me, myself and I against the world me, myself and I. It's not your fault or anyone's that I'm feeling this way. It's not because you're too busy or we don't meet up as often. It's just me or rather it's just life. There's no way I can depend on someone 24/7 365 or put my happiness on other people's hand. I have to be independent and strong on my own. I just got to learn it in the hard way. I know you never forget me and I never forget you too. I miss you time to time, wishing you're here beside me physically. This blog definitely gives me some hope now, knowing that I won't be alone. At least there's someone there listening/ reading my useless problems. But don't worry, I promise you I'll be as positive as I can be. I'm not the same Jer you know back then because I'm not as caught up with myself as before. I have no idea what I was thinking back then gosh I 'm sorry ):
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You never fails to surprise me because only you and you only knew what I was thinking. It's like you can read my mind since day one. I don't even need to say a word to you, at all. I was sitting there laughing because other people thought it was "cute" or "pretty" about that picture. Even the one I thought should know better didn't even realise what I meant. And all those comments made me feel like shit because it makes me want to go back to the past even more. But then again, it's not their fault. It's always mine.
It makes me feel so much better saying out because I thought no one ever understands me. Thanks for always reassuring me that everything will just pass soon. There's always a rainbow after a storm and I'm waiting for the storm to pass.
Didn't realise how long this post is oopsy daisy. Once again, thank you so so much for everything, for being you. You always make me feel a little alive, in a way that I know I'm not alone. I know I'm not alone but sometimes I just need some reassurances. You don't always need to reply asap or post everyday or something okay? I know you're busy and sometimes I am too so don't feel pressurize :**** Just post as and when you like and ONLY if you have the time to spare (:
I love you so so so much more my cutie pie (:
Ps. I know there are a lot other blogs I have so don't mix up and confuse yourself okay :*
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Here I am againnnn it's a Tuesday morning and I don't know, seeing your photo on Instagram just made me really want to give you a hug so mega virtual hug for you because much love for you my dear girl I know you're still going through a really tough time. It's gonna be like that and it's cruel, but slowly but surely, these things come with time. It's so exhuasting so I know maybe you wouldn't have kept track of the days or the time or anything that reminds you how long you have left to go, but you're gonna get through this just fine. Don't count don't think, just be as happy as you possibly can. You and I, we'll try.
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Tuesday, July 15, 2014
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Hiya Jer!!!
First off, I'm really sorry for this page, I really really wanted to continue from the previous blog but I tried like 3 emails and countless passwords but I still couldn't log in because my memory sucks and I forgot the email and password :-( I wanted to surprise you, so I didn't want to text you to ask. I'm sooooorry darling I'm really terrible sigh. I should've written it down somewhere I'm really sorry :-(
But in any case I just really wanted to continue being able to talk to you and two of us being able to share our stories. Whether you reply me back on the other blog or not, I just want you to know this page exists and from time to time come here so you never feel alone again.
I'm sorry it took me so long to start this again. I'm always sorry I'm always so busy, and I think maybe that made you feel alone for a while.
If you feel alone I assure you you are not
I know we both like handwritten stuff, but if I had to write a letter and post it to you everytime you felt alone, it would never get there in time. I wish handwritten blogs exist but that would be too ugly too cause online stuff isn't sincere anymore so this is what we have to settle for I guess; and I hope it still gives you some comfort.
I'm really bad at managing my time, but I never forgot you.
I hope you're coping okay. This blog will only be between us. Just us. (If you want to write here instead of replying me separately on the original blog, you can always text me and I'll give you access to the account!! heheheh but if not, we'll correspond separately whenever you want ;-))
Only the two of us will know about this, and I hope this makes up for the days you feel like you need someone and I can't hear you call. The days when there are more emotions than words, and when the tiredness outweighs the need to try to be happy again. We all have those days, but whenever they appear, this is what I hope helps you just a bit.
This is just an intro post for now, but anyway I'm still always eight numbers away for assurance and a listening ear/advice.
I love you my dear girl :-)
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if you feel alone i assure you you are not
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