Hi bea, there's so many thoughts in my head right now and I have no idea who I should tell to. I figured I'm better at writing/typing it down so here it is:

I was working at toyrus yesterday and my job was to 'take care' of the cashiers. Since it was Christmas' eve, the crowd was super crazy. I was so stressed and you know how I can't work under stress. So I did my job badly and caused a lot of problems at the end of the day when they counted the money at the cashiers. I was doing morning shift so I went off early but at the end of the night there was a problem with one cashier. We all have a whatsapp group so the manager was asking who was the one that did the mistake. Everyone said it wasn't them but I know who did it. It was me. But I was so afraid to admit it on the group chat because one damn paiseh two I already caused a lot of problems before I left. They asked around 1030pm. I was out for supper with some of my colleagues and it bothers me so so much after I read them because I felt so guilty. It was clearly my fault and I wasn't admitting it. I was back home around 4am and decided to text my boss at 440am to tell her I was the one that did that mistake. I felt that I got to do the right thing even though I know I'll be nagged/scolded at. I felt that after 4 years in sjc, one most important thing that sjc taught me was integrity. I did the right thing did I? I'm anticipating with fear of my boss' reply later in the morning. Sigh I can't even do my job right ):