I survived a year without you being by my side physically. I regretted for not treasuring and appreciating you when you were still beside me. I took you for granted and there's no way I'm able to rewind back time. Back when we were just 13 or 14 or 15 or 16. Thank you for being in my life bea. You help me countless time unknowingly. You may not know it, I may not show it but you're one of the reasons why I stayed alive when times were bad. I'm too young to feel this sad and sometimes I even self-pity myself. I don't know if 2013 has been a good or bad year for me but whatever happens, it happens for a reason. 

You once told me, "Everything happens for a reason, even the bad ones."

I'll just go with the flow in life. Because if I could control something, I would. If it's out of my reach, then so be it. Let it happen. "What's meant to be, will be." If God decided to choose this life for me, so be it. Maybe He just wants me to learn life in a hard way, I don't know. 

Hope 2014 will be slightly better. I won't ask for more, I just want everyone to be happy and be in peace with each other. No fights, no riots, no arguing, no blood, no scars. But everything happens for a reason, even the bad ones. So we'll just wait and see. 

I don't know when I'll show you this blog, I don't know if you'll randomly come upon this blog someday but it's only for you and me. Us against the world.